Answers to the questions from chapter one:
1. Can you identify your brand of good girl?
The book gave two types of good girls:
- Type A-the girl who has always been good and is still good and will be the first to volunteer to do good things.
- Type B-Hasn’t always been good, but now since they have accepted Jesus, they have done everything in their power to make the wrongs right and then some.
I guess I’m the first one since I never did anything wrong, but I don’t feel like that defines me well enough so here is my own definition.
I haven’t done anything that the world would classify as “wrong” and probably will continue on this way in the future because it’s not hard for me to choose the “straight and narrow” path. It’s actually quite easy and by stating this fact I feel like I’ve put myself in the “I’m better than 99% of people out there” category. Which makes me look full of myself and really shows me that I need to understand that I am a prime candidate of God’s grace.
2. In what areas have you been tempted to depend on yourself?
I know how to network and ask people to help me with whatever is on my plate: job, help finding a house, a reference for a good dentist, etc. So really I’ve only relied on my great networking skills and charming smile. (I need to work on being humble)
3. What does life look like you when you are driven by fear?
I’m not driven by fear. Timon and Pumba’s song, “Hakuna Matata”, from the Lion King really spoke to me as a kid. That phrase means ‘no worries’ and I repeated it to myself and others throughout the years. I also took on the stereotypical California personality and was super chill. My times of anxiety are when I’m on planes and the turbulence is so bad that I just know that we are going to die so I go to sleep (true story). But that’s it. I really have no fears.
This makes me feel like something is wrong with me. My husband has anxiety and suffers from it everyday. Everyone else has something that they are extremely anxious about. Last night I talked with Ryan about this. He said, “I worry for the both of us.” Which is terrible because I feel like I’m not doing my part, it’s not fair that he is anxious and I am not. I tried to come up with fears last night, but now looking at them I realize that I was trying to make mountains out of mole hills to feel like everyone else.
Fear is a strong word, I am a little nervous about somethings that are normal: will we be able to buy a house, will I ever go to graduate school, will I get to see my family enough even though we live so far away? But these I’m not fearful of, I’m excited for a possible adventure and using Skype more =).
4. What is your sometimes truth that challenges Love’s (God’s) lead in your life?
- My least favorite parts of the bible are the gospels
- I’d rather read a plethora of devotionals and “Jesus books” than the actual bible
- I like to give people the opportunity to know Jesus better, but I rarely take the same opportunity.
5. Do you agree that the best part of hiding is being found?
Here the author is talking about being vulnerable and open with your issues so you can make changes in your life. I’m okay with being open. Actually I’m the type of person who is too open and share too much. But because of that I don’t think that people take me seriously.